an OLD FLAME

It does happen sometimes...actually it happens all the time, not just on me but to everyone.
Last tuesday, when i was dubbing the dance compilation of john prats for his show in Japan, around past 2 in the afternoon, my phone beeps...it was from someone who I didnt expect would text me and would ask how im doing because most of the times, i do make the efforts first.

So he texted me...it was i guess a month now since the last time i heard from him...this time, I was quite surprised to hear him asking me " why wala ka pang bf until now?"...I laughed about it. I wasnt sure If i'll be flattered that he asked me things like that (he's really torpe kasi ever since i met him 4 years ago in my workplace) or i'll be offended that he thinks it is necessary for me to have one, hahaha! well, seriously, im glad he asked me that. But the ending of our conversation was the fact that he wanted to know even if not directly asking me if I'd still can accept him even if there's already an excess baggage ( ouch!)

We exchanged like more than twenty texts on that afternoon, and I bet my phone bills gonna cost me huge amount again. ( he's working overseas for all you know:)...he left his job 3 years ago because according to him, he wants to earn money and find much better job. I can still remember his last words and the look in his eyes when he told me that i'll never gonna see him again. I tried to avoid his serious look because I simply dont wanna believe him - hard to do because he's been a good friend ( hahaha! i wonder if I really treated him as a friend lang talaga or was it more than that?) ...and then after a few weeks, I heard the news from our common friend that he already left the country. Believe it or not, but i did cry for him. According to our friend, he didnt wanna let me know the exact date of his departure to lessen the pain...

...many things have happened and during that span of years, whenever we communicate, we always say the word " I MISS YOU"... There was even this instance when I called him, he was crying when he heard my voice. According to him, he missed me so much that he can't believe I actually called him overseas... and so now, he's coming back soon, I don't know if what was the real feelings then...was it just something to forget about or was it really something to look back and lit the old flame again?